Once I started this blog I don’t know where to take it next. I’m just going to speak with what’s on my mind today.
This past week has been rough on me. I took a hard fall that put me on my couch for a few days. I’ve also been having some bad stomach pains that are causing me to take it real slow. Some of my cardio this week involved me just walking around Target for a few hours. Cardio is cardio in my eyes 🙂
The real battle here is food. It’s been my battle for as long as I can remember. I know I don’t stand alone on this but it doesn’t make it any better. I have a true sweet tooth that I can’t seem to shake no matter what I do. I turn to food for comfort, stress reliever, joyful times, and when I’m feeling lonely. Chocolate is my go to move. I keep it everywhere. It makes feel me safe. As I type this it realize how crazy I sound for saying that a certain type of food makes me feel safe. That should just tell you how deep my food addition runs.
There are a few things that I do to help maintain it. I try not to buy snack types of foods from the store. I know the temptation will be so many other places I don’t need it in my home as well.
If I’m going to keep chocolate in my house I try to be smart about it. I make sure it’s a dark chocolate and it’s portioned out. I also try to make sure it’s worth the calories and the battle within myself.
The other big battle I have is making meals that are right for my body. Being a vegetarian I have to be extra careful not to replace the missing meat with extra carbs. I also have to make sure I get the proper protein to hold me over until my next meal. In an ideal world this would happen every time, but the struggle comes in almost daily.
After the new year I will be going on a three day juice cleanse to help get my body back to feeling somewhat normal after all the wonderful holiday eating. I’ve done a few juice cleanses before. Usually around day two I start to truly hate everyone around me. I try to distance myself from people during this time, so I don’t go crazy on them.
Today I choose to recognize the true struggle I have with food. I don’t want it controlling my every move. I want it to be a healthy balance.
Changing For Me 